I fucking hate sleep paralysis. I've been getting it a lot over the past few weeks and episodes are steadily increasing.

i sleep, and sometimes i dream. I dream and everything's fine until i realize i'm dreaming and have to wake up again. Not being able to do that is what triggers it, i suppose. That uncontrollable fear, That heavy, heavy breathing and that vicious cold sweat.

my eyes are at the back of my skull gyrating violently but i cant bring them to open. I scream, SO loud in my head but my body won't move. My muscles are relaxed and i can't do anything, and nobody can hear me so, i guess that's where the breathing comes in. I breathe as loud as i can because i cant do anything else. I can't move my hands or my arms and i can't wake myself up so i breathe, in the hopes someone will hear me and wake me.

nobody ever does.

eventually i guess i just wake up. I wake up too paranoid to go back to sleep again.

Does anybody else get this / know how to get rid of it?
I'm really really hating it and it scares the crap out of people when they see me sleeping.
heck, it scares the crap out of me, even if I'm having pleasant dreams.

:/

I don't want to go back to sleep.